I was a very strange person in school age 13-18. Especially between 13 and 15. I don't know for sure that this has actually happened, but I suspect that it did.

OK. Here goes. Once in 7th grade, age 13, in winter, I was gonna meet a friend to walk/bicycle home, as we usually did. We had different last classes that day ("student's choice"), and he was late. I think I stood outdoors for what must have been hours or at least a very long time and just waited for him to arrive. Just so that we could walk home together. It was getting dark.

Now, any reasonable person would've said "fuck it" after the first 15 minutes or so, no? The walk home from school (we lived close to each other) was not that far at all.

Why did I do this? And why can I not remember this clearly? Have I repressed it? In either case, this is fully possible and only one of the countless "weird"/embarrassing things that I did back then.

Did you ever do something similar? If so, why? Or why do you think? Was I so generally "insecure" that I felt like this was the most logical thing to do?

I hate my former self.

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I've had a similar "I wonder if I ever actually did that" memory before. In the 3rd grade I sat in the back of the class, and one day I had a huge boner, so I pulled it out under my desk and masturbated while I looked at the back of the head of the girl who sat in front of me. I can't tell if it was a dream, or something I actually did. I really did sit in the back of class, and I really did tend to get erections, and there really was a cute girl sitting in front of me, but did I really masturbate in class?

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This might not be 100% on topic but it just came to my mind. I constantly catch myself confusing dream memories with actual memories.. Like this morning I just sat for 20 minutes trying to figure out if I had really learned how to breathe under water during a swim class lots of years ago.. I mean it should be possible if you just breathe really softly… and I'm pretty sure it was real. its just so confusing after I have come to the conclusion that it wasn't real, how could I even consider it to be?!

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@55,439

Happens to me alot aswell. Often I "remember" conversations that never happened, which can lead to awkward situations. No idea what to do about this.

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OP, no need to be embarrassed. Kids at 13 are innocent and can find themselves sitting somewhere for hours without a care in the world. It probably had nothing to do with insecurity, but rather daydreaming or random idleness.

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@56,048

Somebody has an extremely idealistic impression of being 13. In actuality, a lot of 13 year olds are probably greatly depressed over their social status.

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@56,051

and how old are you?

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when i was 16 i had the most realistic dream about the guy i had a crush on, it was ridiculous. we we're sitting at a friends attic talking, and everything looked exactly the same as in reality, the conversation was consistent, it seemed perfectly real. then i put my hand on his knee and said i liked him, and he smiled back at me.

i woke up with this "ahh yesterday was awesome"-feeling, and went to school thinking it had happened. luckily i figured out it was just a dream when i saw him, so i didnt run over to kiss him ^^;

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