I never talk to people anymore. Don't ask why; it's just how my life has become through a series of unfortunate events.

I often feel like screaming out loud out of frustration. I just hummed a little to myself, and really felt like bursting out into loud singing! However, that would make people hear me. I would not be comfortable singing unless I knew that nobody could hear me… :-/

I basically feel that I am wasting my life. I want to play the piano (never had access to one) and sing or something. Maybe compose music. Talk to a lot of people. With voice. Not fucking text.

End of depressing, random text transmission.

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Instead of using AT as a blog, try speaking your thoughts out loud, as well as singing, and not care who hears you. I mean, you say you want to communicate with your own voice but are afraid of people hearing you when you do? Sounds like you are contradicting yourself.

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Fuck the others. Live for yourself. Simple but effective tip.

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> Fuck the others. Live for yourself. Simple but effective tip.

Yeah, maybe for you. Everyone needs social interactions at different levels, you just happen to not need much of it to be happy.

Do you have anymore information that could help us figure out how to help you?

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> Do you have anymore information that could help us figure out how to help you?

I don't know what that would be…

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> Fuck the others. Live for yourself. Simple but effective tip.

I think this is what you will learn at the end of all of this, OP. It doesn't mean withdraw at all - it means stop mind-reading and creating artificial limitations. Live life without regard for the insignificant judgements of others. Learn it sooner, or later.

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By the way, I'm a musician and I have a nice clear tenor voice that never fails, ever. Just thought you should know.

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The judgements of others aren't insignificant - they're very important, in fact. You just shouldn't dwell on them too much.

You should ease into talking with others. Don't make it very uncomfortable for you, but don't make it too easy, either. If talking to the opposite sex is too hard for you at first, talk to your own first until you're comfortable. It also helps if you hang out with outgoing friends, even if you're not. There's no need to just dive right into it.

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I know you're a kind person trying to help this individual, but let me ask you a serious question. What happens if the opinions of others don't seem to change no matter what you do, no matter how much you try to change, no matter whether they know you or not, etc.? How would you feel if you are prejudged so that every fucking thing that you do is interpreted in one and only one way? How would you feel if your entire character is boiled down in a few words by people who've never known you before, and who seem completely unwilling to even give you a fucking chance to change their opinion, where people express negative opinions about you openly and constantly? Now, there are two options here. One is that you really are a (blank) type of person, in which case, you probably are a scourge to society and should just go back to your hole and die (weeding the gene pool of your (blank) genes). The other option being that you are misunderstood, in which case, there would be little if any reason to subject yourself to constant mockery, ridicule, scorn, exclusion, etc., which is quite likely the only thing you will find in the outside world. While being alone may be depressing in and of itself, it at least prevents you from having to suffer or deal with any sort of emotional pain, however small or trifling it may be.

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If you're changing what you're doing, then chances are you ARE worrying about what they're saying. There's a problem with saying "what other people say about you doesn't matter, you should live you for you." First, it's very blunt and close-minded. It also raises a list of questions

Should you do this in every situation?
What if they're correct?
Are you always correct?

And the list goes on. This saying is meant for one thing: to not let people's self esteem hit the floor when other people make fun of them. That's a different thing entirely. If someone thinks a certain way about me and I have never met them, then if my actions prove that assumption wrong, why should I care? If I never meet them and they think that way about me, then oh well. I never got the chance to do anything about it, so there's no point in freaking out over it.

People opinions of you, though, are very important. They shape what kinds of friends you will make and even what jobs you will receive.

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